The Dream
Are they killing the dream? Or the dream is killing me?
I used to believe in dreams, I used to have a dream, I used to believe in my dream, and I used to fight for my dream. Even if I didn’t realize my dream, I enjoyed fighting for it, I enjoyed every single moment struggling to achieve. You know why? Because I believed in it…
The day I started to believe in my big dream, the storm of doubt blew from everywhere; the storm of doubt was stronger than the wind of belief. The storm was like knife stabbing my heart every day. And the wind of belief died slowly.
I no longer talk. I no longer know anything. I no longer believe. I no longer dream. I no longer feel. I no longer love. I no longer live.
Is the knife, the knife of truth that has to penetrate my heart? Or it is the knife the doubt that wants to kill my heart?
Will I talk again? Know again? Believe again? Dream again? Feel again? Love again? And live again?
I don’t know ….
I used to believe in dreams, I used to have a dream, I used to believe in my dream, and I used to fight for my dream. Even if I didn’t realize my dream, I enjoyed fighting for it, I enjoyed every single moment struggling to achieve. You know why? Because I believed in it…
The day I started to believe in my big dream, the storm of doubt blew from everywhere; the storm of doubt was stronger than the wind of belief. The storm was like knife stabbing my heart every day. And the wind of belief died slowly.
I no longer talk. I no longer know anything. I no longer believe. I no longer dream. I no longer feel. I no longer love. I no longer live.
Is the knife, the knife of truth that has to penetrate my heart? Or it is the knife the doubt that wants to kill my heart?
Will I talk again? Know again? Believe again? Dream again? Feel again? Love again? And live again?
I don’t know ….
On the Heart of me
The people who change the world are the same people who were once crazy enought to think they can .
But it’s not enough to think you can . You have to believe you can . You have to believe in the power of your belief . And guess what? It will only take a simple twist of fate
Do you know Einestein once said ” It’s not that I’m so smart, it’s just that I stay with problems longer. ”
Comment by Anonymous — April 18, 2006 @ 2:57 am
Anonymous: What if your dream will break the heart of all those who love you?
Comment by The Eyewitness — April 18, 2006 @ 11:42 am
Hi Eyewitness. I just read these beautiful words of yours and I hope you don’t ever lose your dream. Storms of doubt may come and go…but nobody can take what’s inside of you away unless YOU let it go.
I for one have had many doubts…many moments of apparent weakness. If we didn’t all have those moments, we wouldn’t be humans. These moments are what gives us the strength to move on:
Either believe stronger than ever…
Or let go!!
You say in your comment to anon: what if your dream breaks the hearts of those who love you. I don’t know Eyewitness!! Why would it?
Comment by neferteeti — May 3, 2006 @ 6:56 am
Thanks a lot for your comment Neverteeti, I really do appreciate yur visit and your encouraging words.
“You say in your comment to anon: what if your dream breaks the hearts of those who love you. I don’t know Eyewitness!! Why would it?”
Because it is reality. It is a fact.
Comment by The Eyewitness — May 3, 2006 @ 9:14 am
DARE to DREAM !!!
your humble servant,
Ancient Clown
Comment by Ancient Clown — May 4, 2006 @ 5:13 am
“Verily, verily. I say unto you, Except a corn of wheat fall into the ground and die, it abideth alone: but if it die, it bringeth forth much fruit.”
Don’t you thint that even our dreams should die with us, so that we can be tools of God’s will? Tell me your opinion.
Comment by The Eyewitness — May 4, 2006 @ 1:02 pm
We are never given a dream without also being given the power to make it come true…we WILL have to walk for it however. My dream is that we ALL become wise instead of knowledgable. Listen instead of just hear…See instead of just look…That we may ‘walk in the way’ and be as Ninevah in action.
Wisdom is not the accumulation of knowledge but rather the proper application of knowledge.
By sharing this, even in death my dream lives on.
Then GOD’s Will be done.
your humble servant,
Ancient Clown
Comment by Ancient Clown — May 4, 2006 @ 4:27 pm
p.s. but I don’t think I know…i just know I’m thinking
Comment by Ancient Clown — May 4, 2006 @ 8:05 pm
First of all I agree with you about your definetion of wisdom and agree that such a dream like yours is not a questionable dream, it seems to be clearly god’s dream. But let’s consider some kind of personal dream, like joining some kind of christian community, being a priest…or such a staff, I do think sometimes these dreams are ours and not god’s will even if they seem holy ones in front of others. I’ve a lot of examples from the life different saints, who used to have personal dreams and it took them very long time change their dreams to live god’s dreams for them.
Comment by The Eyewitness — May 4, 2006 @ 10:14 pm
This is where I think the Ancient definition of ‘FREE WILL’ comes into play. “Free will is not decided in our day to day decisions, but rather in the initial decision to see who you are in the eyes of GOD. To see yourself from ‘that’ perspective instead of everyone else’s around you, including your own. I also invite you to look at ‘CAIN & ABEL’ on my site for deeper thinking…and ‘Answering Prayers’ if you have the time.
Please remember..I don’t think I know..I just know I’m thinking.
your humble servant,
Ancient Clown
Comment by Ancient Clown — May 8, 2006 @ 3:03 am
Hope this isn’t too long and you like it:
Why We’re Not Here
There has been a question
That has crossed everyone’s mind
It has plagued us all
From the beginning of time.
It’s been asked in churches
They haven’t a clue
It’s been asked in schools
But they’re asking you.
It’s been tackled by scholars,
Doctors, lawyers, and judges
And where writers have tried
We find only smudges.
Great thinkers have tried
And tried, and tried again
The closest of these I think
Was Mark Twain.
In the history of man
It remains unclear
And the question is
Why are we here.
To help out a bit
I have some suggestions
To find the right answers
You must ask the right questions.
Are we here to be the type
Who kills and destroys
Who builds themselves bombs
And plays with nuclear toys.
Surely we’re not here
To ravage the trees
The rivers, the lakes
The oceans and seas.
I don’t think we’re here
To learn how to hate
Nor to suppress
Enslave, or mutilate.
I know we’re not here
To watch children starving
Not with turkey politicians
Ripe for the carving.
I doubt that we’re here
To spread this disease
I doubt that we’re here
For any of these.
So what could it be
If none of the above
What of understanding
Compassion, and love.
With life so confusing
And answers so rare
I thought that just maybe
My thoughts I would share.
your humble servant,
Ancient Clown
Comment by Ancient Clown — May 8, 2006 @ 3:06 am